Yamapi reaches out, and hopes that when he opens his eyes again, there'll still be the two of them. That after all this, there'll still be Jin. Whatever else he loses, he can't lose this.

This is it. I love this bit to a ridiculous degree. Oh, God, Yamapi. I just, throughout the whole thing, I felt like something incredible was pressing down on me, like Yamapi's burden of self inflicted guilt was weighing me down with him or something. And every time he went with Jin's instincts, the pressure kept increasing. Until that moment. It just finally felt like that out of every time he was entrusting his life, Jin's own life, to Jin's gut feelings, this time, it wasn't out of weakness, or guilt, or anything else that it might have been colored by at other times-- it finally felt like it was pure trust, something that came from within, and it felt like strength.

What I mean by rambling nonsensically is basically that I love this a pathetically huge amount and admire you for being so aweosme and writing this. ♥_♥